Thursday, January 2, 2020

How To Find Good And Honest Information About God, Your Life And Your Problems

As the grace of humility and a sincere seeking of God’s Will decreases in our society, the online garbage written about Catholicism by self-appointed Catholic experts has increased.

These writers often blame victims or give spiritual advice that might literally destroy readers’ lives and greatly damage their souls.

Especially dangerous for Catholic souls are forums where non-experts write ill-informed opinion responses that they pass off as factual.

Can you sometimes find good information at these sources? Yes. Sometimes great information.

But it is more often you will find information that is heretical, self-absorbed and destructive.

It's as if they've forgotten the truth we are taught by Jesus: we will be judged for everything we say and write.

Finding help in a Catholic Forum is akin to trying to find soap hidden among a pile of dung.

How filthy will your soul become by the time you reach the soap? How small will the bar be compared to how dirty you are? Will you be able to clean yourself at all? (That is, will you be able to untangle your life from the mess following bad advice has gotten you? To undo bad advice is a process that can take years, a decade, even longer.)

There are two sides of this coin. Considering how much time, effort and struggle it can take to become a Saint, and how few find the "narrow path," as Jesus our Savior tells us, it is a little silly to expect a stranger on a forum to provide Saintly advice that will help you deal with your life's spiritual problems. 

Where can a sincere God-seeking person find helpful writings?

There are 2,000 years of lessons written by Saints on the topics of sin and what misery sin does to our lives... and how God offers all sinners total forgiveness, strength to give up sin, heals them, and prepares their souls to enter into His Eternal Kingdom of everlasting peace and joy in the Light of God their Loving and Thrice Holy Creator.

These writers are Saints. What they have written is without error; they will not mislead you.

Many exorcist priests are sincerely pious and faithful, powerful in God, and engaged in battle with the forces of Hell. These good priests also write books to help you.

Seek God in the writings of Saints. God has the answers for your life... online strangers might be worldly.

I consider this blog not an end in itself but motivation to get you to read the works written by great Saints. Their writing has infinitely brilliant and soul-feeding information. 

Recall how during John the Baptist’s mission, he pointed away from himself and toward Christ? Despite this, many of his followers continued to follow John instead of Jesus.

They frustrated John’s efforts to see where their True Salvation was. They spiritually resisted following Jesus. Many of them struggled to overcome that resistance.

In these blog entries, I am pointing to the Saints and their written works. You will find salvation in their words. Their writings will be your instruction, your help, your guide. 

God will reveal Himself to you through them.

The Light of God shines through His Saints. That is what a Saint is: one through whom the Light of God shines perfectly. That is why you will find the Light of God in their writings. 

The Bible is a compilation of the writings of Saints, is it not? There have been many Saints since the time of the Bible; God's grace has not stopped flowing. 

God is pouring His grace into our souls through these Saints from generation to generation, for the purpose of helping you. God knew you would read these works here, now, in this time period, and be lead to Him.

Those Saints were not writing for their generation only, but for all future generations as well.

God had Saints leave their writings behind for our generation -- for you -- because God loves His creation so much. We are His creation. You are His creation.

God is omniscient, He knows everything: God foresaw that you would one day read the Saints' writings.

Out of His infinite Love for you, and all souls, He bade His Saints to write.

The Light of God is what you are seeking. God is the answer to your problems.

I have my own testimonies, but only to encourage you to read the real stuff by Saints. Saints impart vital information. If you give up sin and read their works, and pray every day "for the purpose of knowing the truth and receiving contrition and pardon for your sins," your soul will be in a better place. 

God will lead you.

You will find hope, especially in the prayer of the Rosary through which Mary crushes the skull of the serpent.

Pray specifically for the intention of "knowing the truth and receiving contrition and pardon for your sins.” God will set you free.

In short, you are more likely to find good information online and avoid bad, dangerous information if you fully understand what religion is, when you've already read holy works by Saints, prayed and gone to confessions, and spent time before the Lord in Eucharistic Adoration. Your soul will be raised up toward God. 

Soon, when you see something heretical or arrogant you will be more likely to recognize its errors from your the personal experiences you have had with God gained through holy reading and prayer. You'll find yourself on the right track, you'll be well anchored in God.  It will be very beneficial to you.

Here’s a link to a previous post containing writings by saints and pious people have benefited me greatly. I pray that they will help you, too:

Tuesday, November 19, 2019

Curse? Everything turns into failure

There's no real way to know if you have a curse or not (I am quoting Fr Fortea, the exorcist, when I say that).
It could be that you have committed some sins and now they have caught up with you, or that someone is sinning against you, or a combination of all of that.

I will give Fr Fortea's advice from the book "Interview with an Exorcist" about breaking curses (which also involves getting rid of sins). You can read the book yourself, it's available at amazon and is very straightfoward and easy to read. The exorcist explains a lot in short paragraphs done in a question and answer style that makes it extremely easy to read. I recommend that book to everyone, I had spiritual resistance to reading holy works, but they are very important. Very very important.

Here is Fr. Fortea's advice.

1) Attend sacramental confession regularly. You can't go to confession if you aren't Catholic, but I would pray for a holy priest and call a Church anyway and ask about it, they will still help. (You have to pray for a holy priest. There are priests who don't consider the mystical or religious side of religion, they think of it as just a job and they're kind of atheistic. You have to pray for a good priest.)
Attend regularly, monthly, I would say, for several months, and then perhaps you can go down to every few months when your sins are less. 1 Sacramental Confession with a priest is worth 10,000 exorcisms. Basically if you attend sacramental confession regularly, you can't be cursed. It is an incredibly powerful sacrament, and the primary way to avoid being cursed.
Here is a prayer to know your sins and help foster a desire and confidence in attending sacramental confession, called "Prayer that Leads to Happiness and Healing":

2) Attend Mass regularly, even daily. You  can't receive Communion if you aren't Catholic. Attending Mass will still help. It also helps to have an understanding and appreciation of Mass and Communion, if you read the Prayer that Leads to Happiness and Healing, you will see that there is a book linked there  called "Come to Me in the Blessed Sacrament" that explains a great deal about Jesus' true presence in the Eucharist. You can also read the book "201 Inspirational Stories of the Eucharist" by Sister Patricia Proctor to understand Jesus' true presence in the Eucharist through 201 stories written by various people from their various experiences with the Eucharist. 

I firmly believe in Christ's presence in the Eucharist from my own experiences from about 15 years ago. At that time, I knew nothing of religion, basically, except that I had recently learned to pray the Rosary. I went to a chapel of adoration. I saw no purpose in doing anything worldly, I had given up on that, but I had no idea about religion: I only saw no point in it because I saw we were going to all die some day, and I saw that no matter how "great" you were, there was always someone better, and I saw the emptiness in striving after all of this stuff. I did not see a purpose in it. I had also been abused, and I was also disgusted with my own sins and myself, life in general.

I went to the chapel and I immediately felt intense anxiety in the presence of the Eucharist. It occurred to me that this anxiety was from the wrong side of the "spiritual tracks," so to speak, and so I stayed. I decided to sit down and wait. So I waited. 

after a few moments, I felt as if someone stood up and ran from out of me. As if something... left me that had been attached to me. Then, an immense peace, that permeated me completely and that I had never experienced before, enveloped me, was completely in me, deeper than anything in the world. Deeper than the very atoms that made me up. Because it entered into my soul.

This was the Peace of God, the peace He promised to give that the world cannot give. I felt it, I experienced it, in my whole being.

I never had any difficulty believing that there are demons, that they can attach onto people, to whatever degree they work (I think a lot of it is just people ignoring God and doing evil moreso than demonic influence), and I never had any trouble believing that Jesus is truly present in the Eucharist.

I was like the demoniac that had been healed and I wanted to stay with Jesus forever. I always wanted to be at the Foot of the Eucharist.

It is interesting, when I went out in the world, I no longer strove after success the same way. However, God blessed me with many gifts and talents of success because I was no longer seeking the world first, I was seeking God first. So I did not have these false idols to success, and so He could bless my work, because essentially the work didn't matter to me, the idolatry to success didn't matter, I was only working for love of Him. (It did lead to a lot of problems because people were jealous, and this was confusing to me because essentially I wasn't doing it, God was working through me. So I can understand that a person is capable of being cursed because of success. But again, that's not necessarily the case, and if you do these things that Fortea prescribed, you will be safe, protected by God.)

Pray for the gift of Faith. God will hear such a prayer, God will answer such a prayer. Then He will lead you to having experiences with Him. And then you will be happy.

Spend a lot of time with Jesus in the Eucharist. He's available online at and here and here and other places online, but you should also go in person.

What's also interesting is that a 20 year study was done on suicide among depressed women.

The women who attended Mass at least twice a week had 0 zero suicides. None.

The women who attended Mass once a week had a very low rate of suicides.

The women who attended protestant "services" had a higher rate.

Of course the women who were atheists and got no religion at all had the highest rate.

This should tell you that Jesus is truly present in the Eucharist and that He not only keeps people from sinning, but He also delivers us from evil, exorcising our souls in His presence in the Eucharist through which He enters our souls.

This is not to say you are suicidal: I am trying to say that if He can work such a powerful miracle for so many depressed people, that He can work great miracles in anyone's life, anyone who clings to Him where He can truly be found: in sacramental Confession and in the Eucharist. He is a very good and loving Father. He will take care of us if we cling to Him. He helps us. He loves us more than we can imagine. He wants to heal us of sin and of sins against us. He loves us.

3) Pray the Rosary every day. Again, the link Prayer that Leads to Happiness and Healing, that book "Come to Me in the Blessed Sacrament" has a Rosary section that is the most wonderful Rosary I have ever prayed. I do recommend saying all 15 mysteries daily, the Joyful, Sorrowful and Glorious mysteries daily.

The most thorough and complete book on how to pray the Rosary is "Secret of the Rosary" by St. Louis de Montfort. I highly recommend buying a copy of that book.

The Rosary is meditation on the mysteries of the life of Jesus, so also reading the Gospels is important as well.

4) Anoint yourself with Holy Water every day, making the sign of the Cross over yourself.
If you attend Mass, when you enter the chapel you will be doing this.

Saint Pio urged people to make the sign of the cross slowly and reverently, offering up to God the Father Jesus present in the Eucharist on all the altars of the world. He said that most people make the sign of the Cross very poorly and irreverently and that this was wrong.

That is the advice Fr Fortea gives for breaking a curse, I have added additional information to try to help you. Again, you can read his book "Interview with an Exorcist" for more information.

My personal experience, if there is someone you know, even a family member, or a friend, who is involved in the occult (including yoga, New Age, etc) or who has rejected God, turned away from the Church, or blasphemes God, or otherwise is a sociopath or narcissist (all alcoholics and drug addicts and porn addicts -- including people who read written porn -- are narcissists, and also porn is basically witchcraft because the most basic witchcraft is sex magic which is basically what pornography is), spiritually you need to distance yourself from that person. How you do that is basically by throwing away everything material they've ever given you. Or donating it. What they've given you has created a sort of spiritual tie between you and that person, and that needs to be broken. The object itself isn't bad, it's just that they've given it to you.

This can be complicated if it is a family member who has given you, for example, all your furniture or clothes. I personally have donated or given away or gotten rid of most of my furniture or clothes that was from someone who deeply deeply hurt me, and it really does help break the spiritual tie between you and that person. But also anyone involved in the occult, I had a friend who wasn't really a friend but pretended to be to my face, but became invovled with the occult behind my back and cursed me behind my back without me knowing it (actual witchcraft stuff, she was reading curses online and doing them). Anyway, it created all sorts of problems in my life and that's how i know about all of this stuff.

Such a person isn't really your friend. An addict or a narcissist or a sociopath isn't really a friend, either. They're not capable of it. Humans who have those problems aren't capable of real friendship. We can really only love each other selflessly if we are seeking God wholeheartedly and are loving one another in God.

It doesn't matter either if the person thinks he or she is doing "good" magic on you. There's no such thing. Jesus declared "only God is good," therefore if someone goes to a fortune teller or witchdoctor or places a curse on you to try to "help" you, they've still grievously sinned against you and against God and you are going to have a lot of problems because of their sin.

It's not really that there's a "curse", it's more that people sin against each other. One of the worst sins is hatred of God, and that's essentially what "magic" or the occult is. Also, people try to use religion as the occult. Basically, people use "magic" to try to control people, events, etc. Religion is about a relationship with God. It's not about controlling things, although with God's grace, profound meaning enters into our lives because we begin to understand God's love.

That's why you also have to forgive people. You can't seek revenge against them (even the revenge of "living a good life,") nor have anger or hatred to such a person. Yes, you have to not be friends with them or avoid them and get rid of the stuff they have given you, but it can't be done out of smugness, arrogance, hatred, revenge, etc. Those are all sins and those sins will create a bond between you and very person you are trying to escape.

Oh, yeah, also throw away any fiction where the good guys/heroes in the stories are vampires, werewolves or witches. Those are all symbols of sociopaths, narcissists, practitioners of the occult, in general people who have rejected God in order to worship themselves. And also people who listen to heavy metal or pop music or rap (because of the subject mostly, which is highly sexualized and therefore dehumanizing and a grievous sin, or is angry/rageful and maybe about revenge) tend to consider themselves cursed. It's because of their own sins in being vengeful or hateful or sexualized or whatever that they think they're cursed, essentially because through their sins, they let the Devil into their lives.

It's also good to get people to pray for you, yeah. That's good, too.

Most importantly, I would say that you have to understand that material and worldly success do not mean you are "blessed." Oftentimes you see people say "I am so thankful for my job and my family and my wealth #blessed". In the Gospels, Jesus says nothing about "you're blessed if you are rich." If anything, the people who crucified Him did so because they insisted that the Messiah would be someone who would make everyone rich. They clung to worldly wealth, worldly success. He warns against this idolatry to success a lot.

When we pray the Rosary, when we get to the sorrowful mysteries, notice that we are still hailing Jesus and Mary as "most blessed" even when Jesus is being abused, murdered, publicly humiliated, dying as a "failure" in the eyes of the world, and Mary, a penniless widow, is burying her only Son. They are most blessed because they are without sin. They are innocent. They are not naive, innocent doesn't mean naive, it means they are without sin. That is why they are blessed.

Many many people lose their souls and go to Hell because they worship Mammon and think that their souls are alright with God because they are [worldly] successful. If you look at the life of Jesus and the life of His Saints, their lives are wrought with struggle and hardship that brought them closer to God. 

But also, if you look at the lives of sinners, their lives are wrought with struggle and pain, too -- only it didn't bring them closer to God, they rejected God to cling to their strivings after worldly success, rather than seeking God.

Having failures doesn't mean you aren't cursed, but it also doesn't mean you are cursed, either. Usually you can tell if there is demonic activity in someone's life if, for example, you have difficulty praying all of a sudden, you feel a terrible weight on your chest whenever you try to pray, or like crying uncontrollably while trying to pray, and it goes away when you stop. That would be one example of demonic activity.

Rather, in your worldly "failures" God could be calling you into a deeper relationship with Him rather than a superficial life of seeking empty, worldly wealth and success that will all amount to absolutely nothing when you die.

He might be trying to call you to Himself to heal your soul and wash away your sins and prompt you to seek His Will and have a true conversion, which will give you eternal, and true, wealth and success.

If you pray the Rosary "for the purpose of knowing the truth and receiving contrition and pardon from your sins," Mary will help you. She will help detach your soul from worldly attachments and false idols. She will help you grow in virtue. The Rosary will be a ladder that leads you to God.

It is important to pray the Rosary because Mary is the one who will crush the skull of the serpent, as God said to the Devil, "I will put emnity between you and the woman... and she will crush your skull, and you will lie in wait for her heel." Mary is "the woman" who crushes the skull of the serpent. Jesus also announced this in the Gospels when He said of Mary that she is blessed because she is obedient to God. In other words, she is the one who is perfectly obedient to God, she is the Immaculate Conception. All of Hell is terrified of the recitation of the Rosary.

I recommend you listen to Saint Therese's Story of a Soul while doing all of the other things I've given you to do, so you can try to understand God better and be drawn closer to His Eternal Love. You can also read it, it's very good. She's a wonderful Saint who will lead you closer to God and will really help you, not just to learn from her but also to pray to her.
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She will lead all souls that entrust themselves to her to the God that she has loved so wholeheartedly.

Here is the audio to Secret of the Rosary, also, by St Louis de Montfort, if you would rather listen (both books are also really good to read if you wouldn't rather listen to them):

Finally, read "All About the Angels" by Fr. Paul O'Sullivan. Inexpensive book that is very important. There is so much fake, diabolical information that is not based on real religion, but is new age or heretical, that is online and probably in books, too. But this was written by a priest and was written in the 1940s and also is based on scripture and the catechism teaching. The angels have a much greater knowledge of God and can help you to pray and to understand the importance of prayer and of the sacraments. They can assist you greatly also in all of your endeavors in life. You can get to know your own guardian angel who loves you very very much, even right now as you read this, he is praying for you with great love that you will have a greater relationship with God. Your guardian angel is very good and nice and intelligent, which you can find out all about when you read that simple book.

I have written a lot, and more importantly linked to a lot of good writings by Saints and holy men and women, in various posts on this blog. Mostly I think it is important to read the excellent things written by Saints. Those are the most important. Saints' writings are the best, because God imbues their writings so much with His grace to help lead us towards Him. Saints' writings effect our souls. Not just our minds with knowledge, God imparts knowledge to our actual souls.

May God bless you and keep you in His Mercy and bring you ever closer to Him.

Monday, August 12, 2019

Prayer the Leads to Happiness and Healing

Prayer I wrote that helped me very much to be happy, to be led closer to God and therefore be happy. 

It has a lot of influence from homilies, St. Faustina's writings, the Catechism, and problems and sins people suffer in contemporary society, and my own thoughts when I was first converting and repenting.

(It includes a Precious Blood prayer at the end which I did not write. It comes from Precious Blood International which has a nihil obstat. The prayer I wrote has no approval or disapproval, I just wrote it and found it spiritually beneficial, as did another who prayed it, also, in a sort of trial run before being posted here.)

I prayed it daily* and received much grace from God and have been very happy, not in a forced or fake way, but sincerely joyful at times, like I have never been in my memory. I hope that you can pray it daily and are led to a closer relationship to God, to increased devotion to God, so you will be happy, and joyful, as well.

*(Some slight additions were added to make the prayer more universal before being posted.)

It is a consecration to the Sacred Heart of Jesus, as well, which is typically prayed at 5PM, towards an image of the Sacred Heart of Jesus, however you can certainly pray this prayer any time. I sincerely believe it will help you.

It's originally written as an elaboration on St. Louis de Montfort's request to daily pray the rosary "for the purpose of knowing the truth and receiving contrition and pardon for your sins."

This prayer is for that intention — to know the Truth and receive contrition and pardon for your sins.

I do recommend, therefore, praying the Rosary.
The best book for learning the Rosary is St. Louis de Montfort's "Secret of the Rosary."

Daily rosary after that to foster devotion to Jesus in the Eucharist which I recommend, and which Mother Teresa wanted everyone in the world to read so they could understand how much God loves them, is from the book "Come to Me in the Blessed Sacrament" by the Missionaries of the Blessed Sacrament. There is a rosary in the back of that book that will get you through the toughest of times.

May God grant you the wisdom to leave everything and follow Him. Amen.

Prayer, ©Boldradish 2019:

My heart is hard like a rock, O Lord. Like a rock in the desert. Full of idolatry, self-will, blindness; a lack of understanding and knowledge of Who You truly are, clouded by my own false perception and obedience to worldliness rather than to You, Who Alone are God forever and ever, Who Alone are Good, Who Alone IS. You are the Creator; I am the creation. I cannot create a new heart in me. I cannot create virtue within myself. I cannot heal myself. No human can. We did not create ourselves in the first place; we cannot recreate ourselves.

But alone, separated from You, cut off by iniquities, I can do nothing at all. You, my God, are the branch, and I am the vine. The worst sin is to say, "I have no sin," because when my sins separate Us, I wither up, and if I lie and say "I have no sin," You cannot free me from my sins and so bring me back to life.

But, through Your servant Moses, You struck the rock with Your rod and out came water, symbolizing the grace that You would cause to come out of my own wretched and hard heart. Your Thrice Holy, Infinitely Pure Heart was pierced on the Cross so that You would grant grace and true wisdom to my own worthless, undeserving heart…

With Your dying breath, You gave me Mary to be my Moses in the desert. Mary is the one who crushes the skull of the serpent, who destroys all heresies in the history of the world. I invite her to crush the serpent and remove his poison from my own soul.

Through the Holy Name of Jesus, through the intercession of Mary, through Your Head crowned with thorns in atonement of all my evil thoughts and desires, please God: grant me sincerity, that all duplicity and all manipulation and all controlling others, false accusations, histrionics — desire to be seen or awarded by people — and all pridefulness may be taken from me; grant me purity that I may no longer be defiled with narcissism and hypocrisy, whose root is idolatry; grant me disobedience to the world, to greed, to worldly success, to worship of the image one presents in front of others, and to the forces of Hell and all fallen knowledge, all occultic and human thinking and teaching, all blasphemy and irreverance and taking of the Lord's Name in vain, and give me obedience solely to You, my God and my King, filling me with a very holy and right-minded fear of God; grant me a heart that contemplates Your Holiness, a heart free from inflicting the abuses of selfishness, discouragement, mercilessness, jealousy, murmuring (complaints), gossip, foul language (cussing, uncharitable words, even in my thoughts), being a busybody, being uncharitable by not praying or helping others or only helping so others will see my deeds and praise me (pride), and all bitterness; sins of the flesh, more than any other reason, are why sinners go to Hell, so please grant me freedom from sin in my words, deeds, manner and dress, how I present myself, recreation, especially in my thoughts and how I think and what I desire, and sobriety from drugs and alcohol always; grant me to see those around me, especially the weakest, as Your brothers and sisters, and grant me freedom from impatience, resentment, condescending attitude, hatred, cruel thoughts, evil desires, anger, all forms of revenge (even "living a good life"), and all that is defiled, because You have said that what we do to the least of the human race, even in our thoughts, we do to You, my God... and You desire to forgive me in Your Presence in Confession and in the Eucharist, so how can I be so hard-hearted as to retain sin towards others?; grant me true knowledge of You, stripping me of all my misconceptions, ingratitides, ignorances and spiritual blindnesses, which cause me to be unspeakably cruel to You Who are deserving of the farthest reaching efforts of love. Please grant me faith, hope, and charity; freedom from anxiety about current events, in my life and in the world, through unwavering belief that You are the One Who saves the world, not a specific circumstance or person (not me, not anyone besides You).

Please grant me discernment about people's true motives, as so many people's lives and immortal souls are destroyed by narcissistic/sociopathic/psychopathic friends and family, and clear up for me my misconceptions about people's motives, good or bad. Please take away all lack of forgiveness in my heart: I am a sinner who does not deserve to be saved by You, yet You demand me receive grace from You, it pleases You that I come to You for forgiveness and grace, so I must forgive others and separate myself from others who are bad so that I will not be led astray or ravaged by the prowling wolf. Please grant me freedom from idolatry to human relationships and freedom from idolatry to created goods, so that I can know and give up bad relationships, and objects associated with bad relationships, and all evil objects or pastimes, as You Yourself said, "let the dead bury the dead."

Is there still spiritual darkness in me? If so, when, O Lord, will you take the darkness from me, and replace it with Your grace? I see You lowered into the tomb for me, into my tomb, to take my place. I do not presume to know where I will go after I die -- Heaven, Hell, or Purgatory. I throw myself on Your Mercy. But I know that You are thrice Holy, and only the clean may stand in Your Presence. Sinners deserve not only physical death, but spiritual death, torment in Hell or Purgatory for their sins, and have I not also sinned? But in Your Infinite Mercy, rather than giving me physical death just yet, You have called me to prayer. I acknowledge that I have sinned and I hand my sins to You, that You can take them away. Your Life, Death, and Resurrection pays for all my debts. In Your Infinite Mercy, You have brought me to You, that I may be cleansed by You, and spend what unknown time I have left on earth to learn You, from You, and so be filled with You. I want to despise everything You want me to for love of You. I want to spend eternity with You in Heaven, and I know that You love me so much that You want me to spend eternity in Heaven with You, even more than I want to go to Heaven! Because You are Infinite and I am finite, my love is limited, but Your's is unlimited! No one has cared for me with the patience and selfless love that You have. Will only in my physical death I no longer be offensive to You because then I will no longer have opportunity to sin further? But I believe in Your omnipotence and infinite Mercy, to change me, if it is Your Will. Salvation is not in death; it is in You, in whatever it is that You Will. I love You, I love Your Will: change me.

You are Infinite, and I am finite: so weak, yet so ambitious; so prone to sin, yet so self-righteous, full of self-love and self-pity, macho-ism/false stoicism, perfectionism. I desire to repent and be changed by You! I wish to forget myself and focus only on You! And to be filled with Your Charity, Patience, Obedience to God, and Humility -- even just a tiny crumb of Your Goodness! And what hidden idolatries within me are causing me to worry? Happiness may come and go in this life, but if I lack true joy in the depths of my soul, it is only because I have forgotten You, Your generosity to me and to all souls, Your Goodness, Your Justice, Your Mercy, Your Omnipotence. In Your Infinite Mercy, please change me wholeheartedly forever: a new creature, even in this life, even on this miserable, sinful earth. Wash away my sins in Your Blood, take them far from me, and transform me even in this life to no longer offend You, O Love. Your Mercy Wills that I ask You for this immense favor.

My heart was once burned thrice over by my sins and the sins of the world. Your Own Sacred Heart burns, not with the destructive fires of the world or of Hell, but with Your life-giving Fire, the Fire of Your Love and Mercy, which imparts healing and true life — life in You! I consecrate my heart to Your Sacred Heart, out of love of You, as a response to Your Love. Let me speedily rise to spiritual perfection and perfect trust in Your Ocean of Mercy — Your definition of spiritual perfection, not my erroneous definition. Place but a small flame of Your Fire over my heart, and my heart will be healed… forever transfixed by Your Love and Mercy, discerning Your Will, and leaving behind the chains of sin and all sinful relationships to devil-people and unclean objects and undue fear. Heal me, Lord. Heal my soul. If not for my sake, then for Your own glory, and because You have said that my sanctity will effect the sanctity of other souls, whom You suffered, died and arose from death to save.

If I am productive in all the passing things of the world, but lazy and neglectful in seeking Your grace in contemplation and prayer, how can that help my soul? It will only make me empty, hollow, with a rotting, putrid soul. Please take away my laziness in seeking and obtaining Your grace when and where it can be found, from You, Who give yourself to us through prayer and in Your Sacraments. Please instill deep within me understanding and deep reverence for, and belief in, Your Power and Presence in Sacramental Confession, the Eucharist, Mass, Baptism, and prayer that I may be found worthy to enter into the unspeakable and unimaginable joy of contemplating Your Glory for eternity in Heaven.

It pleases You that I ask boldly, in Jesus' Name, and through the infinite Mercy of His pierced most Sacred Heart, for these graces which I need the most and which I deserve the least: please grant me full and true knowledge of all my sins, sincere contrition for my sins, and a sacramental confession that is worthy in Your Eyes, so that I may be able to avoid the miseries on earth due me by my sins and avoid the pains of Hell or Purgatory; and so You (and to the extent that I am able) can repair all the havoc and destruction my sins have caused in my and others' lives, and so You can bring me into the joys of Heaven; but most of all because You, my God, are worthy of all my love. I thank You from the bottom of my heart, a gratitude words cannot describe, for all the previous confessions of mine that You have heard and all my sins You have forgotten through Sacramental Confession, and I thank You for all priests who have ever heard my confessions. Please enlighten my future Confessor, whomever he may be, that he may understand my confession, and grant him peace and joy, protecting him always in this life, because You accomplish Your Work of Mercy through the sacrifice of his life, his life that he sacrificed to Your Love. I love You, my God — You alone are my Peace.

Matthew 12: [Jesus said] It is from the heart’s overflow that the mouth speaks; a good man utters good words from his store of goodness, the wicked man, from his store of wickedness, can utter nothing but what is evil. And I say this, that in the day of judgement men will be brought to account for every thoughtless word they have spoken.

Precious Blood Prayer: Dear Holy Spirit, My God. Teach me to speak wisely. 
Let me avoid useless thoughts and useless conversations. Help me to speak often for You. Grant that my words may never hurt men of goodwill. May My words always bring consolation to those in sorrow and guidance to those in need. Take my lips and make them Yours. Take possession of my mind and make it an instrument of Your goodness and a channel of truth. I hope to become a man of silence, who prefers to talk to God then to men. In my human conversation, may I always bring them closer to You and You closer to them. I ask this through Christ Our Lord. Amen. [Optional, 1 Our Father, 1 Hail Mary, 1 Glory Be, or pray while gazing at the beautiful Miraculous Medal.]

God, Father, Son, and Holy Ghost, take over!

Mary, take over!

Philippians 4: Joy to you in the Lord at all times; once again I wish you joy. Give proof to all of your courtesy, modesty. The Lord is near. Nothing must make you anxious; in every need make your requests known to God, praying and beseeching him, and giving him thanks as well. So may the peace of God, which surpasses all our thinking, watch over your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. And now, brethren, all that rings true, all that is holy and commands reverence, and all that makes for right; all that is pure, all that is lovely, all that is gracious in the telling; virtue and merit, if there be any virtue, if any praise of discipline, think on these things.

Tuesday, June 25, 2019

What is obedience (Catechism), examples of Faith (Catechism), and on the growing spiritual threat of materialism

Post: To obey (from the Latin ob-audire, to "hear or listen to") in faith is to submit freely to the word that has been heard, because its truth is guaranteed by God, who is Truth itself.
Abraham is the model of such obedience offered by Sacred Scripture.
The Virgin Mary is the most perfect embodiment of this virtue.

Obedience is what earned Abraham the title "Father of Faith," and God's great promise to him.

Obedience is what makes Mary so holy, kind, virtuous, courageous and brave, patient, amiable, good, truthful, sane and bringing sanity, with a beautiful soul; and also what makes her the strongest and also the most powerful human person to have ever lived, and who will ever live. Obedience to God is what earned Mary the title "The One Who Crushes The Skull of the Serpent Under Her Immaculate Heel."

Obedience to God means rebellion to the world.

Obedience to the world means rebellion against God, which is sin, weakness, evil, cowardice, idolatry, the falsehood of materialism (which is a belief that personal salvation or improvement of life comes from the material world — from money, worldly success and personal accomplishment, objects and ownership, control over others, popularity/fame, that you have inherent value before God — that you are good and inclined to virtue or not inclined to sin — because of your race or gender* or age or nationality or family history or genetics), selfishness, jealousy, hate, murder, hideousness of soul, worthlessness, lying and masks/false fronts, insanity and causing insanity in others, giving into peer pressure, darkness and ignorance, confusion, true aloneness, all forms of wickedness, making oneself into a spiritual cesspool, making one's soul truly repulsive; obedience to the world is the definition of true failure.

*there is no such thing as "maternal instinct," nor are women inherently "more nurturing" or somehow less selfish or "less warlike" or more "in tune" with others. (Let me reference innumerable examples…)

Also "instinct" is an atheist's way of not showing gratitude to God for His Gifts, or a pagan's way of attempting to understand a world that doesn't make sense because there is yet a revelation of God. "Instinct" implies we are incapable of virtue, and therefore incapable of sin, because we are chemical, biological robots. It implies we have no soul, no spirit, no "inner self," that we more or less do not exist. It is nihilism. There is no place for this empty philosophy among Christians. If there were, the Angel Gabriel would have greeted Mary: "Hail Mary, empty vessel, full of maternal instinct." God did not send this message to Mary.

If this empty nihilistic philosophy were true, Adam and Eve would not have been held accountable for their sins. "Well, it's just part of their biomechanical nature." But that is not what happened…

If it were true, God would not have said of humanity, "they are little less than the angels." He would have said of humanity, "they are little less than the rocks."

If you consider yourself a Christian, a seeker of the Truth, Truth Who is God, stop clinging to pagan or antichrist beliefs, stop "teaching the ways of man as if they were the ways of God."

A man will not be virtuous or have true bravery — which is facing one's sins and giving up sin and following Christ to spiritual Gethsemane and Jerusalem — simply because of being a man, as we see in the Apostles vs the women who followed Him to His Crucifixion: the Apostles ran, all but John, who rested on Christ's Heart (through his devotion to the Sacred Heart of Jesus, he got his strength from God rather than attempted to get his strength from himself and fail like his Apostle brothers).

The women risked imprisonment, torture and death to follow Jesus to Calvary and bring Him comfort and defend Him. Not because they were women, but because they sought God, Who made them courageous in the face of death. Seeking God is not "inherently" more easy for women to do somehow: all is a grace from God. All grace must be sought from God. All must seek grace from God through prayer. We even need to pray to be able to pray, that is how much we need God!

Those who try to justify themselves will fall and be scattered, as God says He will cast the mighty and arrogant from their thrones and raise up the lowly who rely on Him alone — who are "the poor in spirit".

God says this repeatedly in the Old Testament and demonstrates it accurately in the New.

True bravery and nurturing/encouragement are both graces from God Whom He gives to those who say "I am not God" and who obey Him and seek strength from Him alone, rather than from the world or from themselves, as He says over and over and over and OVER again in the Old Testament. He doesn't judge humans the way we judge ourselves or others: God looks into the heart, which we humans cannot do. We can't even see into our own hearts, we can't even see our own mistakes or lack of virtue, as God says to us "you are spiritually blind, ask for true sight from Me." This is the beginning of true wisdom.)

It is true Satanic attacks are more frequent against women than men, as the Devil hates all humanity but women especially because he hates Mary, and Satan is quite sexist and transfers his hatred to all women. Exorcists have noted this over and over. This does not mean men are not afflicted by the demonic in large percentages or numbers, or somehow men are impervious to demonic attack. They are afflicted. Satan hates everyone and everything, because all reminds him of God.
But God is not sexist. Ageist. Racist. Etc. He gives grace to anyone who seeks Him sincerely and seeks to give up sin.
And we humans are not demons. We ought to believe in God and seek Him in all sincerity, no matter our background. We have no excuse to do otherwise.

We need to forget ourselves and seek God sincerely.

God has lifted up to sanctity every imaginable type of person as examples for us. We are not confined to being inspired only by those similar to us (ie, women do not only pray to women saints or some such absurd idea, that is very self-absorbed and materialistic, and not consistent with the history of the Church). I saw, at a very Communist church, a Theresian society that was only for women, to the exclusion of men. This ought not be so! St. Thérèse has inspired and aided many men to great virtue, mysticism, and even Sainthood! God gave her grace so that she could help Him save all peoples! Even though she is French, she has helped all who invoke her — even German soldiers during the First World War (as certainly the socialist Germans weren't invoking her in the second world war, or else she would have helped them then). To apply materialistic standards to a Saint like this is a great sin. There are already men's and women's societies*, there should not be limits put on a soul's access to God's grace.

*why there are mens and womens organizations is beyond me, but they exist, and I am dubious about them, as a large aspect of witchcraft is based on the demonic lie of so-called "feminine energy" and "masculine energy," and our culture is more and more aligned with all sorts of occult and materialistic ideas, so I really doubt these organizations… I have talked about "natural witchcraft," or an aligning with unclean ideals without knowingly participating in witchcraft, although still practicing the occult or being attracted to the occult, in the Depression Healing post, and I have talked about idolatry in many posts...

"If we say 'we are free of the guilt of sin,' we deceive ourselves; the truth is not to be found in us.

"But if we acknowledge our sins, He Who is Just can be trusted to forgive our sins and cleanse us from every wrong."

The following is from the Catechism:
Abraham - "father of all who believe"

145 The Letter to the Hebrews, in its great eulogy of the faith of Israel's ancestors, lays special emphasis on Abraham's faith: "By faith, Abraham obeyed when he was called to go out to a place which he was to receive as an inheritance; and he went out, not knowing where he was to go." By faith, he lived as a stranger and pilgrim in the promised land. By faith, Sarah was given to conceive the son of the promise. and by faith Abraham offered his only son in sacrifice.

146 Abraham thus fulfills the definition of faith in Hebrews 11:1: "Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen": Abraham believed God, and it was reckoned to him as righteousness." Because he was "strong in his faith", Abraham became the "father of all who believe".

147 The Old Testament is rich in witnesses to this faith. the Letter to the Hebrews proclaims its eulogy of the exemplary faith of the ancestors who "received divine approval". Yet "God had foreseen something better for us": the grace of believing in his Son Jesus, "the pioneer and perfecter of our faith".

Mary - "Blessed is she who believed"

148 The Virgin Mary most perfectly embodies the obedience of faith. By faith Mary welcomes the tidings and promise brought by the angel Gabriel, believing that "with God nothing will be impossible" and so giving her assent: "Behold I am the handmaid of the Lord; let it be [done] to me according to your word." Elizabeth greeted her: "Blessed is she who believed that there would be a fulfillment of what was spoken to her from the Lord." It is for this faith that all generations have called Mary blessed.

149 Throughout her life and until her last ordeal when Jesus her son died on the cross, Mary's faith never wavered. She never ceased to believe in the fulfillment of God's word. and so the Church venerates in Mary the purest realization of faith.

Stop wasting time online; instead read the Bible, study scripture:

Say the Rosary, love Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament.

Sunday, March 24, 2019

"Follow your heart" is evil advice Jesus warned against, will lead to your destruction.

Book of Sirach:

Knox translation: In manhood’s vigour, do not follow the whim of thy heart, boasting of thy strength, and asking who will call thee to account for thy doings; God will find a way to punish thee.

Douay Rheims translation: Follow not in thy strength the desires of thy heart: And say not: How mighty am I? and who shall bring me under for my deeds? for God will surely take revenge.

Matthew 15:18: "But the things which proceed out of the mouth, come forth from the heart, and those things defile a man. For from the heart come forth evil thoughts, murders, adulteries, fornications, thefts, false testimonies, blasphemies."

What comes forth from the heart defiles a person with sin, and then they are going to face God's judgement (eternal destruction) when they die. Therefore, the definition of foolishness is to "follow your heart" and to "believe in yourself."

Here is a description of contemporary society, offered in 2 Timothy:

"Be sure of this, that in the world’s last age there are perilous [perilous for the safety of your immortal soul] times coming. People will be in love with self, in love with money, boastful, proud, abusive; without reverence for their parents, without gratitude, without scruple, without love, without peace; slanderers, incontinent [without any sort of self-control], strangers to pity and to kindness; treacherous, reckless, full of vain conceit, thinking rather of their pleasures than of God. They will preserve all the outward form of religion, although they have long been strangers to its meaning. Now these people, avoid. They count among their number the men that will make their way into house after house, captivating weak women whose consciences are burdened by sin; women swayed by shifting passions, ever learning, and never attaining to the knowledge of the truth."

Never attaining knowledge of the truth, meaning of course, those who say stupid phrases such as "believe in yourself" and "follow your heart," and think they are wise, even though this advice is impossible to actually follow and have a good outcome, as anyone knows who has followed this advice.

Rather, follow God's advice and believe in God, because He has come to warn you about sin so that you do not destroy your life on earth and spend eternity in Hell. He has come to save you from sin, that you avoid it, and learn about God and do His Will, so your life on earth is put together and so that you spend eternity in Heaven with Him.

Matthew 7:21: "Not every one that saith to me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven: but he that doth the will of my Father who is in heaven, he shall enter into the kingdom of heaven."

Knox translation: "Make your way in by the narrow gate. It is a broad gate and a wide road that leads on to perdition [Hell], and those who go in that way are many indeed; but how small is the gate, how narrow the road that leads on to life, and how few there are that find it! Be on your guard against false prophets, men who come to you in sheep’s clothing, but are ravenous wolves within. You will know them by the fruit they yield. Can grapes be plucked from briers, or figs from thistles?    
So, indeed, any sound tree will bear good fruit, while any tree that is withered will bear fruit that is worthless; that worthless fruit should come from a sound tree, or good fruit from a withered tree, is impossible. Any tree which does not bear good fruit is cut down, and thrown into the fire."

If you want wisdom, pray to God to ask for wisdom, and then read the Book of Sirach, the Book of Proverbs, the Book of Wisdom, and the entire New Testament.

All supposed "wisdom" from contemporary popular society is Satanic and pagan, as we live in a society controlled by those who are militant atheists and loath true wisdom, which only comes from God. Their false and empty "wisdom" will lead you to destruction and ruin.

(When reading these books, remember that if something in one of those books refers to an evil man or an evil woman, the same is true of the opposite gender. So for example, if is mentioned a wrathful man will lead to your murder, remember also the same of a wrathful woman; or a woman laden with sexual immorality will lead a man to Hell, remember also that a man laden with sexual immorality will lead a woman to Hell, etc., as Jesus explains very clearly when He speaks of adultery and marriage. That also means the same is true of the praises of virtue, when the Bible speaks of the virtuous woman, a woman who is physically strong, financially wise, thoughtful about the future, patient with others, most chaste, and God-fearing, these same beautiful virtues also apply to virtuous men, and vivify men's souls as well, making their souls beautiful in God's sight and in the eyes of people.)

Do the following to bypass the inane and self-destructive "advice" of friends, family, teachers/leaders and popular culture:

To Do List:

  1. Pray, in your own words, to God, asking Him to give you true wisdom out of His Infinite Mercy and because of the promise He made to help all those who sincerely call upon His Holy Name. Tell Him that you understand that He left these holy readings for you to gain knowledge from, but that no amount of studying will create wisdom in a person, unless God Himself intervenes with a miracle and grants wisdom. Wisdom comes from God, not from reading and studying alone.

    1. Solomon made a great offering to God, and the following happened to Solomon as an example to us:

      That same night, the Lord appeared to him, bidding him choose what gift he would. [God would give him anything he asked for.] And Solomon said to God: Thou hast shewn great kindness to my father David: and hast made me king in his stead. And now, Lord God, make good thy promise to him. Since thou hast made me king over thy people, a great people countless as the dust, grant me wisdom and discernment in all my dealings with them. How else should a man sit in judgement over such a people as this, great as thy people is great? And the Lord answered, For this choice thou hast made, thou shalt be rewarded. Thou didst not ask for riches or possessions, for glory [honor, fame], or vengeance upon thy enemies, or a long life. Thy prayer was for wisdom and discernment, to make thee a better judge for the subjects I have given thee. Wisdom and discernment thou shalt have; and I will give thee riches and possession too, and such glory as never king shall have before or after thee.

    2. Understand this: God is so immensely pleased with the request you make to Him for True Wisdom, to know and to do His Will. Often pray for this, as Solomon did, and as God wrote that we might imitate this request, and follow through with the actions of prayers, Eucharistic Adoration, participation of the Sacraments, and of the greatest importance, Holy Reading. Then God will give you wisdom and a close relationship with Him. He will lead you along the narrow path of Truth which the world seeks and can never find. He will love you as a dear son or daughter of His, and He will bring you up to Him. He will smile upon you and your soul will know happiness: the only true happiness a soul can have, which is the happiness of having God pleased with you.
    3. Always, every day, pray for the purpose of knowing the truth and receiving contrition and pardon for your sins.
  2. Read the Entire New Testament
  3. Read the Book of Wisdom, and recognize that this is about devotion to Jesus and Mary, especially in the Rosary, as Wisdom is personified as female to prepare our souls for Marian devotion, devotion which Christ gave us with His dying Breath on His Cross because it will lead us to Jesus in Heaven:
  4. Read the Book of Proverbs
  5. Read the Book of Sirach
  6. Watch the Near Death Experience of Marino Restrepo:
  7. Read the Near Death Experience of Gloria Polo:
  8. Read the Conversion of atheist Jewish Harvard professor (re-written on this blog)
  9. Read the Psalms
  10. Read the Catechism. (A priest's instruction to me in confession was to read just a few - meaning 3 - lines of the Catechism a day, and after a year, I would have had the whole thing read. At first I dreaded this. When I actually read it, the Catechism was most extremely beautiful and pleasing to my soul to read, because it is about Jesus. So read a few lines of it a day, and in a year, you will have read the whole thing. Jesus is most profoundly beautiful and wonderful.)
  11. Read further readings from Saints or other holy works (NO affiliate links below, I don't get any money from this. I suggest reading these because God will use these holy works to bring you wisdom and bring you closer to Him):
  12. Read Miracle Detective
  13. Read How to Converse Continually and Familiarly with God (booklet, short) by St Alphonsus Liguori, Doctor of the Church:
  14. Read The Secret of the Rosary by St Louis de Montfort or Download Free PDF
  15. Read Come to Me in the Blessed Sacrament
  16. Read Prayers and Heavenly Promises
  17. Read Diary of St. Maria Faustina, Apostle of Mercy (possibly future Doctor of the Church) Divine Mercy in My Soul
  18. Read Interview with an Exorcist (the introduction of this is extremely good and inspirational):
  19. Read Visits to the Blessed Sacrament and the Blessed Virgin Mary by St. Alphonsus Liguori:
  20. Read this website about the Holy Face of Jesus:
  21. Read The Imitation of Mary
  22. Read It's Time to Meet Saint Philomena: (I've read many books on this Saint, I have even written a book recounting the miracles she worked in my life, and although this one is short, it is the best of all of them, so much so that a decade ago when I went to her Shrine in Italy, which I do not recommend now for the great danger that would pose to you given the heightened violent activity and occult activity of Italy today, but there are still many devotions to her that you can practice and see many miracles take place in your life. If you want to pray for wisdom, ask her, I have every confidence she will obtain it for you. That dear holy and powerful Saint Philomena, the Wonder-worker.)
  23. Read St. Therese of Liseux, Doctor of the Church, Story of a Soul
  24. Read Hell Plus How to Avoid Hell:
  25. Read An Easy Way to Become a Saint (and take notes on this book; i keep all my notes in, a free note taking service that, as far as I can tell, does not read one's notes like many online companies, making them useless for religious purposes -- as they all hate religion and penalize you for being religious. Evernote doesn't examine yourself without telling you unless you call attention to yourself. Therefore, you can also keep your prayers organized with Evernote):
  26. Read The Number of Sins Beyond Which God Pardons No More (short read, homily) by St. Alphonsus Liguori:
  27. Read Abandonment to Divine Providence (Free PDF): or Book:
  28. Read Can You Lose Your Soul and Go to Hell for the Way You Dress? (post)
  29. Read The Wonders of the Holy Name: (this saved my life once, I'm glad I read it):
  30. The Philokalia, Vol 4 (I recommend starting at Vol 4 as that volume has information on noetics and how to have a religious experience with God, and you can get the $1 Kindle version even if you don't own a Kindle by reading it with amazon's free Kindle reader which they will give you for your computer, although you can read all the volumes if you want):
  31. Read All About the Angels and anything else by Fr Paul O'Sullivan:
  32. Read 201 Inspirational Stories About the Eucharist
  33. Read 101 Inspirational Stories of Reconciliation: I came that they might have life and have it to the full
  34. Read Nihilism: The Root of Revolution in the Modern Age by Fr Seraphim Rose to learn about why our society is the way it is (including with such horrendous, awful false "advice" -- even why people drive like they're out to die, and why people do kill themselves with drugs and alcohol, and destroy their souls with ever means imaginable, it just explains why society is the way it is):
  35. Read St. Padre Pio's Words of Hope
  36. Read An Exorcist Tells His Story by Fr Amorth (ignore the introduction not written by him): and An Exorcist: More Stories (ignore the introduction not written by him):
  37. Read anything about or by St Maximillian Kolbe, Concentration Camp Martyr during World War 2, who willingly traded his life to save the lives of others and who brought peace to many who were suffering in the camp with him.

There are many more things to read, but this is a good starting place.

I've had many people read these posts and think I am wise. ... I am not wise.

God is Wise. I often humble myself and tell Him in prayer, with great joy, that I am so stupid and so foolish, and I am so relieved that He is so smart, Intelligence and Wisdom Itself, and that He is so Merciful to help a little, worthless nothing like me. His tremendous Love and His tremendous Mercy give me great joy; without Him, I would have nothing.

If I, who am nothing, can have God for a friend, if you ask Him for wisdom, He can help you, direct your steps, give you true wisdom, share Himself with you, and make you into His friend, as well.

Always pray all 15 mysteries of the Rosary every day, and always pray for the purpose of knowing the truth and receiving contrition and pardon for your sins.

Your friends, family, and society do not have the answers to life. They do not have the Truth, they do not have Wisdom.

God does. Only God can save you.

It is so important a thing to always pray for the purpose of knowing the truth, as no one prays for it, and so no one has it, but rather they have such empty, destructive, vapid words as "follow your heart," that outwardly appear pleasing, but are, in reality, a death sentence.

I made the following diagram to illustrate the difference between those who are crucified out of their hatred (sin, disobedience, ignoring) of God and those who are crucified with God, and the fruits of both of them. (It's hand written so I hope it is legible, click to make it bigger.)

The most important charity you can do for other people is hidden, and silent, and they'll never know, and that is to pray for the salvation of souls. To pray for souls, souls you don't even know, daily.

Because our world is a whirlwind of worthless and destructive advice and garbage that destroys souls, and ... I know from evaluating myself, there is no reason that I should have the joy of knowing God while others are lost. They are not better than me. I know without God, I am a sinner, and worthless, and foolish. I know it is only God Who has put anything in my soul and freed me from any curse and sin. And so I know that I must pray for souls, and because of Jesus' kindness, He will save souls from Hell. Even if they have to go to Purgatory, which is like Hell, it at least will only last a little while.

Many souls are lost because not enough people pray and realize the value of prayer. Salvation of souls depends on our prayer. When God gives you wisdom, you will understand this.

Encouraging words, my guardian angel helped me write, and you can read these whenever you need to be encouraged to pursuit prayer and holy reading and the work of your salvation, which helps save many souls: 
you can pretend to yourself

that your prayers don't matter,
that what you do doesn't matter.
But you know that 
your prayers are effecting
and have effected
many many lives,
people you don't know
people in Purgatory
people God seems to have
gone out of His Way to hide
from your eyes
because He loves faith
so He wanted you to have faith
because He loves you
and wants to make you pleasing to Him with your faith in Him.
you can pretend anything you want
but you know 
prayer is the most important thing
a human being can do.
it changes -- not just lives,
it changes eternities.
it is the difference between
Heaven and Hell.
that is how much power
God gives to His Children
in prayer.
that's why those saints kept Jesus
company in the Eucharist 2-3 hours a day:
that time is how they saved the world.
if you want to pretend that's not true
it's because you don't want to look at—
you choose to be blind to—
all the power, all the force
God gave to you
— yes, you, specifically —
to help Him
save souls
through your
prayer & adoration.
all you have to do
is humble yourself
and ask Him to save souls.
and then He does.

In the evening, I saw the Lord Jesus upon the cross. From His hands, feet, and side the Most Sacred Blood was flowing. After some time, Jesus said to me, All this is for the salvation of souls. Consider well, My daughter, what you are doing for their salvation. I answered, “Jesus, when I look at Your suffering, I see that I am doing next to nothing for the salvation of souls.” And the Lord said to me, Know, My daughter, that your silent day-to-day martyrdom in complete submission to My will ushers many souls into heaven. And when it seems to you that your suffering exceeds your strength, contemplate My wounds, and you will rise above human scorn and judgment. Meditation on My Passion will help you rise above all things (Diary, 1184).